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we're now entering february. damn... time does go by soon. now it's the 5th week of the quarter and sometimes, i still feel that i'm in my vacation mood, with no motivation to do anything at all. ANYTHING. i really wish i can have a day when i can do nothing, just stay at home, be a super lazy bum (as my nature calls me to be), and see how slow or fast time can go by. oh~ that would be paradise. i can never be bored if there's nothing to do, for some reason, i can entertain myself quite well even by sitting on a chair or something. weird me...
so i'm 5 months away from graduation, 5 months away from being jobless, homeless, worthless...
yes baby~~ that sounds so interesting and attractive~!!
things would be great if there's a master plan for everyone to follow, in that case, people don't have to think and worry about their future anymore, they just need to look at their "schecule" and JUST DO IT; and also, in that case, our brain would rot within a couple of years... hehehehe
but hey! having everything planned out for you is a very very good idea! it's the best thing that a bum can ask for!
so i've been talking to friends about our future, asking what they're going to do after we all get kicked out from school. i guess that's because i've been asked too many times "what are your plans after you graduate?" "eh... i still don't have any plans yet...", that has been my lame answer that scared everyone who asked me the question, so later they gave me this kinda pity look and a 'conforting' reply "... well... no plan is a GOOD plan..."
yeah... it's fine... it's fine if you tell me that i'm hopeless you know?! i can take those words better!
where should i go? what should i do? i really have no clue... this kind of uncertainty is what make a lot of people worried and overwhelmed. because it definitely works on me!
i have this idea of a 'pre-determined fate with choices'. my crazy head believes in that each individual is under powers from fate, and this fate works as a huge blueprint. it works similar to
those scrolled-up labyrinth, where you'll only know your next routes after you open the scroll a bit more. so the fate with choices would work as such: the fate plan would look like a huge tree that branches out in tons of little twigs, and that plan is already drawn out right after we are born. starting from the bottom, that would be our early ages, and whenever we face a sort of decision/action with options (either we know it consciously or unconsciously) that is when we find a split on the branch. so once we make a decision, we move on to one of the branches, and we continue our path, along the branch, on the fate tree. then another intersection comes, and it's time to make another choice, and we pick again wich road to take, so on so forth. and once we make a choice, we cannot go back, but to continue the way we chose, and pray that we can make a better choice next time. in that sense, our fate is pre-scheduled, but we don't really know what will happen because we're constantly making decisions and picking our best choice from options provided, therefore we can only kinda predict our future choices after we make a choice.
confusing? yeah... i'm confused as well... this fate labyrinth have lost me... don't know what kind of branch i'm standing on, don't know where it'll lead me to, don't know if this is the best branch available...
so i'm 5 months away from graduation, 5 months away from being jobless, homeless, worthless...
yes baby~~ that sounds so interesting and attractive~!!
things would be great if there's a master plan for everyone to follow, in that case, people don't have to think and worry about their future anymore, they just need to look at their "schecule" and JUST DO IT; and also, in that case, our brain would rot within a couple of years... hehehehe
but hey! having everything planned out for you is a very very good idea! it's the best thing that a bum can ask for!
so i've been talking to friends about our future, asking what they're going to do after we all get kicked out from school. i guess that's because i've been asked too many times "what are your plans after you graduate?" "eh... i still don't have any plans yet...", that has been my lame answer that scared everyone who asked me the question, so later they gave me this kinda pity look and a 'conforting' reply "... well... no plan is a GOOD plan..."
yeah... it's fine... it's fine if you tell me that i'm hopeless you know?! i can take those words better!
where should i go? what should i do? i really have no clue... this kind of uncertainty is what make a lot of people worried and overwhelmed. because it definitely works on me!
i have this idea of a 'pre-determined fate with choices'. my crazy head believes in that each individual is under powers from fate, and this fate works as a huge blueprint. it works similar to
those scrolled-up labyrinth, where you'll only know your next routes after you open the scroll a bit more. so the fate with choices would work as such: the fate plan would look like a huge tree that branches out in tons of little twigs, and that plan is already drawn out right after we are born. starting from the bottom, that would be our early ages, and whenever we face a sort of decision/action with options (either we know it consciously or unconsciously) that is when we find a split on the branch. so once we make a decision, we move on to one of the branches, and we continue our path, along the branch, on the fate tree. then another intersection comes, and it's time to make another choice, and we pick again wich road to take, so on so forth. and once we make a choice, we cannot go back, but to continue the way we chose, and pray that we can make a better choice next time. in that sense, our fate is pre-scheduled, but we don't really know what will happen because we're constantly making decisions and picking our best choice from options provided, therefore we can only kinda predict our future choices after we make a choice.
confusing? yeah... i'm confused as well... this fate labyrinth have lost me... don't know what kind of branch i'm standing on, don't know where it'll lead me to, don't know if this is the best branch available...
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