expensive but cheap

alright, i went for hyatt's try-out in the end. after a series of interviews, the manager told me that they offer the candidates a 2 day try-out to test if we really want the job or not; and after the try-out, we will have a final interview with ANOTHER manager to settle the final issues.
and so i did.
eventho i was very confused at the beginning. didn't know if it would work out or not. funny thing is that i was not the only one who had this thought, all my family and friends were skeptical bout this Front Desk position, my friends even told me not to go that low (oh man... i was a bit depressed when i heard that....). and honestly hearing that, my stubborness started to activate, now i really wanna give it a try, just to prove it to the others.

but... not a good choice (damn it, why 90% of my choices are wrong?)

so the training was divided into 2 days, one is a morning shift, from 7am-3pm, and the following day they offer the afternoon shift, from 3pm-11pm. i went for the first morning session on a Sunday (dun ask me why... i'm just stupid, but heck, everyday is weekend for me anyway), and god... it was HARD to wake up early 5:30 in the morning under a very cold weather...
anyway, i arrived on time, borrowed their uniform. after a series of makeup and hair modification, i finally went out to the front desk, ready to check out this "new job" of mine.
i stayed in the concierge desk for the shift. basically, they just do all the shitty job. whatever that's not check-in/out comes to the concierge, and they have to handle it. plain and borin...

now, for some reason, there's NO chair whatsoever in the front desk. thus, all pple working there have to STAND for their whole shift. and that's what i had to do as well.
seriously, standing for 8-9hrs straight on heels is no fun thing.... your legs might feel a bit better if you're walking around or something, but nop, the front desk walking area is that little. u don't walk at all!!!
just stand, and so i did.

and i came back the first day with some bad paaaaain on my legs... they were exhausted. my sis was laughin at me coz i still got another day to go. it would be not right if i wanted to change days or something. so yeah... i went the following day for my next session of afternoon shift
this time it was in the check-in desk. still no chairs, still standing for quite a lot of hours, but at least it was more... interactive i would say. well... not that much either lah...
i was observing them how to handle the computers to check their guests in, but i kept getting lost halfway. one of the managers wanted me to try one client, but in the end it was not possible, they all had some weird requests.
some guests were friendly, my "trainer" and i were having fun welcoming them into the hotel, others... hm... really bad manners. but i guess that shows the real part of this job: there are some shitty pple out there who will only be polite when it's of their interest (and in those times, we really wanted to yell "get the F out~" at them). kekekek
i'm patient till certain extent =P
now the 2nd shift's till 11+pm... really late (sorry that i missed some calls during the time!! >__<). the biggest problem is that i have no transportation to take me back... and i had to ask my sis to take me back (thanx!) and again... my legs were in horrible pain, and they still are... i seriously feel that now my calves are bigger... @___@ sux... oh, i saw the pay that they're gonna give me. like USD$70 for the 2 days. that is, approx $35 for 9hrs. SHITTY huh?! damn low pay lah..... >__<
such an expensive physical abuse for a cheap shitty pay....

平衡點

有人說 愛是不會平衡的. 不管兩人再怎樣相愛, 還是會有一方會付出的比較多, 但那沒關係, 因為愛就是這樣. 有人較願意付出, 但不需索取相同的對待.

我問 兩方有不平衡的愛是一定的嗎? 還是那是因為之間沒有良好溝通, 所以當一方心甘情願付出時, 另一個就覺得理所當然? 因為沒共識, 所以不知自己的部份要補上多少?

$ vs <3

it's been another week here in tw. sometimes, i still can't believe that i'm back here already. all the scenery, the people... they seem so unreal. i can remember the days in seattle as if they were yesterday. and there are times that i feel this "being in tw" thing is just temporary, i'll be abroad soon.
what is this?? culture shock? day dream? or an inability to accept reality?

job huntin has been... just ok. a few iterviews but nothin serious. they always tell me to wait for their calls, and that normally doesn't mean good news. well, i've been pretty good with a hotel job tho. it's amazin how many interviews the candidates need to go just for a front desk position. i've been interviewed twice, in chinese and english, and then, i'll have another round of english and chinese interview, again. hm... i wonder if all those front desk girls went through the same thing... or am i a special case?
this job put me into some serious thinking tho. on one hand, i would love to work for a world class hotel, but on the other hand i wonder, do i really worth "this" much?
ay... too much ego involved, and i overestimated myself too much. maybe that's why i got rejected for the $40k one. damn it.

but yeah, putting interests and money to weight, which one worth more?
i think i'm being too greedy and judging jobs by their pay, that's why i dun care and dun have any industry in mind that i would want to work for. "as long as they pay ok, i can work for them".
... but... money is important too right?! if not... how is one gonna cover the expenses?!

and then... come to think about it...
i'm not in the right position to judge my talents, because i haven't shown any to anyone yet. i need to test my abilities and limits first before questioning myself and my future.